I know some people think it is cheesy. But I find that it’s cute. I mean, I want someone to sing to me. I want someone to mail me letters, or even send me random cute messages. I want someone to send me flowers, even though I hate flowers haha but still! It’s cute. I just want someone to do something cute and sweet for me, but not because they feel obligated to, but because they want to. I want someone to wake me up with the cutest messages, and write me long messages when I sleep so that I could wake up reading them. I want someone to come up with creative dates. I want surprises. 

I don’t know, my female friends and I were talking last night. We were talking about how our boyfriends don’t do sweet/cute things for us anymore.. It’s like once in a while. At first, they used to constantly do sweet things for us when we first dated. But afterwards, now that we’ve been together, all the sweet/fun/creative times are just gone. My guy friends were defending the guys saying that “Oh now that they have you, they don’t need to like try and win your heart anymore.” Well, doesn’t matter. I mean, regardless if you have her or not, you should always do sweet things. You should always show her that you love her. It also just makes the relationship more interesting, and just makes the relationship full of life. I mean, you don’t always have to do sweet things. But just doing it randomly, or when she leasts expects it, is nice. It seems like things are so boring now.. I don’t know. Just venting really lol.

I wasn’t home all weekend, so I was unable to do this. But I just want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas! I hope you guys had a great weekend celebrating God’s birth! (: <3 Remember to thank Him for all your blessings, and for EVERYTHING!

5 more days until New Yrs Eve! Whee, (:

I’m not the type to be jealous, honestly I’m not. I find jealousy so bleh lol. Like it just brings worries, and frustration to a relationship, and just makes you lose trust. Like being in a relationship, to make it go well, and last is for you to have trust in each other. And being jealous just ruins that. But lately, my jealousy radar thingy has been going up. Probably because I’m not a priority any more & I know I said I have other things that are important now too, but that doesn’t mean I put other people as a priority. Maybe I put my super close best friends, but that’s because I’m not going to push my friends away from me, just because I have a boyfriend. My friends are super important to me, they have ALWAYS been there for me even before I had a boyfriend. I’m not really jealous.. But I just don’t like to be pushed away.. And be put behind some people. I mean, if it’s your fam, or super close best friends then yeah I understand. But if you’re going to put me behind some next girl, who isn’t even your close friend, then yeah. That’s going to obviously put some jealousy in me, or even make me angry.

I don’t know. Maybe it’s my fault. Maybe I’m just being annoying lol. I don’t know. Been so impatient and just so tired of everything lately. Maybe I’m just being paranoid and shouldn’t even like.. Be jealous. Maybe I’m the one at fault. I don’t know. I don’t know anything any more. Just needed to get this off my chest somewhere. And lately I haven’t had anyone close to even talk to any more. Seems like everyone has their own problems, and their own stress. Seems like I have no one to talk to any more sometimes.. I mean, I hate being a bother to people, I honestly do. So everyone has their own problems, no point in going to them. Now I’m ranting about some next thing. Anyways, that is all.

If any of my close girl friends betray me by talking behind my back, and spreading rumours about me.. oh man, you better fess up when I confront you. I rather have you straight up tell me the truth, because trust me, if you knew me well & was really close with me, then you would know that if I confront someone & they lie to me, and I KNOW you`re lying to me then it will be so hard for you to regain my trust. But if you tell me straight up, then I won`t be as angry, & I`ll just be like “this person is honest enough to admit they talked about me. This shows that they value our friendship & are mature.” THAT`S what I look for in a friend. Will I be upset or angry at you? Well.. I sorta have a reason to if you`re talking and spreading lies about me lol, but I`ll get over it really fast since you admitted to it. But will I hold a grudge? Nope. Be like Christ; forgive & be loving. But again, if you lie to me when I confront you, it`ll be so hard for you to regain my trust. 

SO TO ALL YOU GIRLS, just don`t lie when I confront you lol. I honestly only confront people if I have proof, and like straight up facts that you said something. I`m not the type to listen to one person who I call “reliable,” but if a GROUP of people tell me the same thing, then yeah there`s some truth in it. 

My opinion, my vent, my feelings. 

I hate this place . Get me out of here, please .